Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Academia :: Sia

i know we've blogged about sia before, but this particular song struck a chord with me. sia has done a lot in her career, which began with her first solo cd, OnlySee, in 1997. she's well known for a couple of reasons: her collaboration work on many tracks for the british downtempo group zero 7 and her hit song, breathe me. this aussie is weird. that's why i like her. she's very different and eclectic and quirky. AND, she's recently come out as a lezbian! i really dig her new cd, some people have real problems, because it's just that - a recognition that some people have real problems. many of the songs deal with love, heartache, loss, relationships, etc. this album definitely moves away from the style of writing that is utilized in her most famous single, which is, at best, a very ambient, sentimental...emo track. but the one song that has been in the foreground of my mind since i've heard it is academia.

as i come closer to may 11 (my graduation date), i start to panic slightly because it means that time is running out for me to finish my thesis. some days are better than others, and most days i am reminded that i need to take a break from academia. but it is during these little vacations, that i come to realize that my relationship with academia will always be one of love/hate. i love being in school, but i hate how i feel it separates me from reality. i love learning, but i hate being forced to write about what i've learned. i love writing, but i hate feeling like what i write will be judged. when i first heard this song, it was eerie...became a sort of running conversation from me to my thesis and vice versa. but more importantly, this song resonates within me because of the following lyrics:

Oh academia you can’t pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love


how i would love for school to be enough...for being an academic to be enough, but it's not. i need things that are more tangible...to be more tactile...and not so much all in my head, or all in pure theory. so this one goes out to all y'all still in school and working on projects that just need to be finished. may you have the strength, determination, and hutzpa to get through it.

the end.
<3,
meggo.


Academia::Sia
You can be my alphabet and I will be your calculator
And together we’ll work out on the escalator
I will time you as you run up the down
And you’ll measure my footsteps as I blow through this town
The mean of our heights is divided by the nights
Which is times’d by the daggers and the route of all our fights,
The pass of your poem is to swathe me in your knowing
And the beauty of the word is that you don’t have to show it

No, oh academia you can’t pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love

I am a dash and you are a dot
When will you see that I am all that you’ve got
I’m a binary code that you cracked long ago
But to you I’m just a novel that you wish you’d never wrote
I’m greater than x and lesser than y, so why is it
that I still can’t catch your eye?
You’re a cryptic crossword, a song I’ve never heard
While I sit here drawing circles I’m afraid of being hurt

Oh academia you can’t pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love

You’re a difficult equation with a knack for heart evasion
Will you listen to my proof or will you add another page on
It appears to me the graph has come and stolen all the laughs
It appears to me the pen has over analysed again
And if I am a number I’m infinity plus one
And if I am four words then I am needing of your love
And if you are a number you’re infinity plus one
And if you are five words you are afraid to be the one

Oh academia you can’t pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love
Oh, Academia
Academia
Academia, oh
Oh, Academia
Academia
Academia, oh

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Stress :: Jim's Big Ego

You know that feeling you get when you drink too much coffee? That wired jumpy jittery feeling where you feel really productive but you're really not getting anything done? This song makes me feel like that without even having to drink copious amounts of coffee. It's one of my favorite songs to put on in the morning when I'm getting reading to go.
In addition, doing things last minute under stress has basically been how I've operated academically this year. It's really not a wise life choice, but it's a habit I'm trying to break. For example, I've been working a little bit on my senior paper every day. Go me.
Anyways. The band, Jim's Big Ego, based out of Boston, plays some rather strange stuff (clearly) but most of it's decent. I know the lyrics are really long, but they're also really funny so enjoy.






I'm Addicted to stress
that's the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
Everybody's thinking 'bout me
its the little things that get you
its the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention
its the little things that get you
its the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention

trying to cut down on my caffeine consumption
so when i get up i just have one cup of coffee
and i like to have another cup of coffee with my breakfast
and on the way to work i like to get a cup of coffee
like the kind of cup of coffee that you get with the donuts
but i never get the donut i just have the cup of coffee
and when i get to work i have a cup of coffee
cause i like to have coffee when I'm talking on the phone
but it usually grows cold and i need to get another cup of coffee
and its lunch, and i have an espresso
and when i get back its not morning anymore so i have
a diet cola and another diet cola
but then I'm feeling fine and I'm feeling pretty sharp
and feeling pretty wired and I'm getting things done
but right about two i get this little tiny migraine
it starts behind my eyes and it moves to the back of my neck
and it moves to the bottom of my spine
but it doesn't get there until 5 or 6 o clock
which is the end of the day so I'm fine!
so I'm fine so I'm fine
except when i have to work late when i have to work late
which i usually do

I'm Addicted to stress
that's the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
and i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies thinking about me!

((talking to trumpet player))
hey, how ya doing...
looking good...
you been working out? yeah i can tell...
alright... see ya later...

i love to work i love to run i love to play real hard
i love to steal little things from the grocery store
like a piece of bubble gum or sometimes i just stick
my thumb in a peach and leave it there
i love to work i love to run i love to water-ski snowboard
jet ski skydive parasail hanglide rollerblade mountainbike
bungee jump well i mean i'd love to do these things if i ever had the time
i love to work i love to work i love to workout after work
i love to spend a little time with this woman I'm seeing
except uh, we never get the time to spend together
so we call each other up and we talk about work
but i think id really love is to get up by myself on a tiny little island
in the middle of the ocean with just me a book and a cellular phone
and a personal computer in case something came up
and i'd eat and i'd drink and i'd run and i'd sleep
and i wouldn't do nothing but swim all day
except i don't know how to do laps in the ocean
where there are sharks! where there are sharks! where there are sharks!
and there's this kind of anemone that sticks in your foot
and the poison goes up to your brain and you die
and sand fleas! sand fleas! yuck!
but actually i think would be really relaxing
just me by myself in the middle of the ocean
and thats what i'd really like to do more than anything else
except i'd probably hate it

I'm Addicted to stress
its the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
and i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous...
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies thinking about me!