I Held Her in My Arms :: The Violent Femmes

Sorry for so many "golden oldies," people! It seems as though nowadays I am more oriented to the past. I think it's because my life is very much in transition and it's easier for me to think about the past than deal with the present.

Anyway, I am going to share this very special song with you. And I'll let you know that this is no ordinary song for me. I cannot hear this song without feeling a wave of pleasurable tension washing over me. Yes, I said "pleasurable tension." In my mind, this song is permanently fused with the feelings I had the first time another girl and I got all cuddly. We were drunk, it was our freshman year of college... it was magic. But mostly in my mind. And this song was playing on the stereo.

I can't even remember
If we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
But I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
But it wasn't you



Lyrics:

Im gnawing on the knowledge
That I have been burnt
And Im learning things that i
Shouldve already learnt
Everyone I ever knew
Was so kind and coy
I was with a girl
But it felt like I was with a boy
I cant even remember
If we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
But I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
But it wasnt you
I will not kill
The one thing that I love
In this world of wreckage
I look above
Help me lord
Help me understand
What it means to be a boy
What it means to be a man