lover i don't have to love :: bright eyes

i was first introduced to bright eyes a little over a year ago by my friend ben. but this is really the only song that i've been exposed to, well, the only one that's been sorta stuck in my head by them. anyway, it's a great melancholy song about love and hurt and loving and hurting...you get the point.

anyway, i came across this song again on christmas when i was reading this blog. since then, i have come back to it over and over again.

i like it for a lot of reasons, but especially because it's rather ambiguous as to whether it's a boy/girl the singer is singing about at first, but then goes into being about both...yay! the song starts out by talking about how this person hooks up with someone randomly just to have physical contact with another person...but also maybe to forget someone they love...or other parts of life that might suck at the moment. toward the end, it goes into a discussion about love and how, although we run the risk of being hurt badly, we do it anyway....it's sorta masochistic i guess...

this last part is what i've been thinking about lately...about love and relationships and how we end up inevitably hurting/getting hurt by the people we say we love the most...and how even though we hurt and get hurt, we still love no matter what...but the reasons we are hurt is because of said 'love'...it seems viciously cyclical and pessimistic. whoops! perhaps i shouldn't listen to this song, but i can't help myself. since i'm not really pursuing love or relationships at the moment, i figure it's ok that this song happens to be my drug of choice for the moment, instead of potentially hurting or getting hurt...even though i'd probably jump right back into love if it presented itself....

favorite lyrics:

Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do

Then hurt me...



lover i don't have to love::bright eyes

I picked you out of a crowd and talked to you
I said I liked your shoes
You said, "Thanks, can I follow you?"
So it's up the stairs and out of view
No prying eyes
I poured some wine
I asked your name, you asked the time

Now it's two o'clock
The club is closed
We're up the block
Your hands on me; Pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth, trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know who else may have been you before

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet him here but I'm not sure
I've got the money if you've got the time
You said it feels good
I said, "I'll give it a try."

Then my mind went dark
We both forgot where your car was parked
Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning

Bad actors with bad habits
Some sad singers they just play tragic
And the phone's ringing and the van's leaving
Let's just keep touching; let's just keep... keep singing...

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I've got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind

But you, but you...

You write such pretty words
But life's no storybook
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do

Then hurt me...

on a lighter note.... :D (in case this song was too depressing...)