Call It Off :: Tegan & Sara

ok friends...this is another relationship blog, but come on...so much of my old music reminds me of my ex (the lady) and our relationship, so i figure the only way i'm gonna get through this is to just blog about the new music i've been listening to that has been helping me get over it, right?

so, back to how i'm super impatient and like to just make things better right NOW...

like i was saying last week, i've realized i can't be like this anymore. it's not healthy, nor is it right. heartache takes time to heal and so i've just go to stop rushing and let everything take its course. since i've been slowing down, i've realized that it's probably best to just cut off all ties and move on and take care of myself. this is something that's not very easy for me. i have a hard time letting go like this for a couple of reasons. first, because it's hard to just cut someone out of your life after they've been such a constant and significant presence for so many years. and second, because i second guess myself. i second guess whether or not i made the right choice...

enter: tegan & sara.

they have a new album out (the con) and it's probably my most favorite cd they've put outthus far. it has a decent flow to it, it's catchy, it makes me want to be in pop-rock band. this particular song (call it off) has been dear to me because it, in my opinion, captures the struggles of making difficult decisions as mentioned above.

the song is short, sweet, and rockin...and is all about what i was just talking about earlier. i really enjoy it and i feel that tegan & sara have really captured what your heart feels like when you're about to make such a difficult life choice. the guitar part is fast paced, and if you listen carefully, you'll hear the notes going back and forth from low to high, rapidly, sort of mimicking what one's heart does when facing a fork in the road. it sort of makes me feel a little anxious if i just listen to the guitar part, but then they bring you right back to where you need to be with the lyrics - thus making you grounded, but not without emotion. you feel like an emotional rollercoaster, but it's ok...it's normal. it's all a process, right?

anyway, take a look at this video/audio clip i got from youtube.com. it's sort of a weird video, but i wasn't able to find any decent clips of them playing this song. so, if it's too creepy, just listen and read along w/the lyrics.

Call It Off::Tegan & Sara

i won't regret saying this

this thing that i'm saying

is it better than keepin my mouth shut?

that goes without saying

call break it off

call break my own heart

maybe i would've been somethin you'd be good at

maybe you would've been somethin i'd be good at

but now we'll never know

i won't be sad

but in case i go there

everyday, to make myself feel bad there's a chance

i start to wonder if this was the thing to do

i won't be out long

but i still think it better if

you take your time coming over here

i think that's for the best

call break it off

call break my own heart

maybe i would've been somethin you'd be good at

maybe you would've been somethin i'd be good at

but now we'll never know

i won't be sad

but in case i go there

everyday, to make myself feel bad there's a chance

i start to wonder if this was the thing to do

i start to wonder if this was the thing to do